MIXER March '10: Shakira

Shakira, Shakira, Shakira. She never disappoints! her songs always catchy and I love this newest reincarnation of hers. I think she has the beauty, the talent and the brain and that makes her the perfect popstar.

Got Good Hair To Begin With

I got my haircut on Friday night and I felt really good ever since. I felt some of my problems are taken off of my head a bit. Also, I kinda have been busy working on some garments. Still wedding dress, still a knit wear.

It's scary sometimes how one-note I am, because I'm kinda stuck with the systematic work of making a pattern, and then construct a garment, etc. I can't really elaborate if I get into troubles and so on. I am still hoping have some tricks left to get out of this. I already think about the accessories for upcoming shoe: custom detail shoes and lace gloves. I'm freaking out

Love In The Lunar

February Already

It's been a while & I'm kinda slowing down on the internet updates. I haven't really update on anything - facebook, blog, wtv - but just madly checking on gossip blogs, musics and so on. I also got new iPhone (I'm an Apple freak) and new provider too, 'coz I'm done with T-Mobile - over it.

O yeah, it's snowing outside and it comes with a stormy winds. We already knew this so, naturally, there's class cancelations happening - which is kinda gave me mixed feeling. First I need the class time, just to talk about the materials and progress with my prof regarding the collections, designs and stuffs, second, I love the fact that I got more sleeping time. Yesterday I was super worn out and hungry; I got home at 11 PM.. then went to ate like whatever in front of me, and then went bed at 12.10 AM. I'm a night owl, so sleeping before 2 AM is considered very early to me.

I couldn't help my frequent bitching moment, but, I'm like get over this winter and ready for some sunlight. I mean, the cold is too much.. It affects my nose, my skin, there's nothing good came out from winter except hot winter fashion. And speaking of fashion, another Fisher fashion show is coming up this April! and I'm presenting a collection!! it's so excited because I believe it's the first time ever our school presenting collections by its designer - not segmented. I wish us designers would be able to at least have our creative control on the look of the collections, the songs, models and the make up and so far, only the presentation part (As a collection) that was approved. But I keep my fingers crossed.

I'm in the middle finishing my wedding gown and I'm nervous - so I blog about it while listening to Alexander Wang S/S 2010 runway soundtrack ('Pon de Floor' by Major Lazer. It's my jam now). I love listening to music and since Spring is just around the corner, I listened to more dance records with cool beats! (Gaga, Madonna etc.) I think it's just happen to me, I have my seasonal favorites.. Sometimes I listen to all jazz all month, and then 2 months later, I'm hooked with more urban songs and so on. How bout you guys?

Anyway, I'm excited for this year! and I don't know what will happen next, but I hope it better be good!

Frozen Treats

Ah! another bitter cold day, I absolutely hate it. it's around 15F (around -8/-9C) today and I decided to go out to Newbury, took my laptop to the Apple store, for service. The day before however was even colder, but I needed to go out for a while. Later tonight we went to see The Book of Eli (not a 'wow' movie) & Tooth Fairy (a totally family movie), and the night was pretty great. I absolutely have nothing special today, except! I got a reply tweet from Anggun! yes Anggun the singer!



I'm kinda happy for the turn-out. I'm happy that she replied me, but moreover, she is as humble as she is in interviews on TV, magazine etc. She's my only favorite Indonesian singer and I kind of appreciate the Indonesian-ess of her: long dark hair, exotic tanned skin and the politeness of an Indonesian woman.

So anyway, I'm packed with snacks, drinks and comfy bed - it's time for spending some me time.

We're The Night People

Midnight, I really like the sound of that. I also love staying up late. Before I started my classes this January, I had this crazy nocturnal life: sleeping during the day, and awake at night. It's been crazy, but I kinda like that sensation. I love the quietness of midnight and I like that, it calms me down.. also I feel like I can do (literally) what ever I want. It could be lonely at times.. but for once you can have the world just for yourself

What about you guys?

Restart

I really have to take this time to talk about my last semester. Yes, last fall wasn't my most brilliant time ever, I got failures from classes and have personal problems. I believe those things happened because of I got stress and I don't discipline myself. I admit that I'm not particularly great on that department and I feel the result now: stress, weigh gain, failures and so on.

I have to be honest, I'm mad at myself and the world for some reason, which now I think it's ridiculous. I need to be motivated and mostly, disciplined. I need to restart my life.

And then, I saw this article at Yahoo! about tips to lowering your stress level and stuff.. (20 Tips) and it includes like making list, exercise, making your bed, wake up earlier or sleep earlier and so on. I thought that's mostly things that I NEED to do and because of lack of discipline, I haven't done those things in a while. But I agree in that article; saying those little things like that can make you a little happier in life.

I really can't wait to change my lifestyle, but I don't do it as a resolution of a certain year, because I need this to happen throughout the rest of my life. I can wait to restart my life.

MIXER February '10: Sam Worthington

After I watched both 'Terminator Salvation' and 'Avatar', I believe Sam Worthington will own 2010. With 'Clash of The Titans' coming this summer, this year's gonna be a full action-packed year! a whole year worth of Sam that is

Dark Little Secret

Buckle up, it's my 'Emo' moment.

I always thought of myself as a single fighter, means that I always by myself, facing anything. I still feel alone after all these years, and it's pretty crazy because I love being around people and yet I kind of avoiding it at the same time. I love being alone and hate it at the same time. I'm full of contradiction.

I always fly solo, I see my friends they have strong bonds among their peers and I don't feel that I have that. I know that and I think, I think, they know that too. It's such a pity party I'm having here and I feel really empty.

Feeling suicidal? not really. I don't see suicide as an answer for any single problems, but I admit the thought of it running wild couple times and that thought kind of waiting on me, like a predator. I'm all for denial, either bad or good. When I was a kid, I was on denial on Santa Claus. When I got older, I was denial on weight and studies. Now I kind of being denial on any aspects, problems, weight issues, futures and so on. I'm on denial that I have a good life, I have a great times and shits, but actually I'm not. I just felt like I'm good at covering it.

It came to my head when I visit a tattoo parlor in Singapore. The tattoo artist talked about the Gemini thing, she said that Gemini has two 'persona' and it's kinda literal. I absolutely agree. I can't really feel that, but I think that I play a good numbers of personality and I played them well.

I don't know what future helds but I really wish it's a good one. Misery loves company

Lusting

Someday I'll squeezed into these!
Givenchy S/S 10 & Balmain Pour Homme